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Winners Never Quit

02/18/11

Winners Never Quit

Permalink 03:27:00 pm by cassie, Categories: Announcements [A]

So here's another thing. It's a blogging frenzy, I know. So many exciting things going on in life right now.

Today, I finally put in my notice at my job on the CV surgical unit in NH. I've still got my five-minutes-from-home, pays-way-better job here to fall back on, so it's not a financial loss or a decrease in hours or anything like that, but still.. there's always something about leaving a job you actually LOVE that's difficult. I spent my long commute up there this morning praying and rehearsing how to say things in an eloquent, appreciative fashion to my director. I knew all the things I wanted to get in there, my opening and closing statements, all the flesh in between, full of tidbits about how much I loved it there, all the characters I've run into in the form of patients, and how much I've learned from my Nurse Babyhood until now, Nurse Teenagedom. I feel I'm at least a very mature fifteen year old, in nursing years.

I had called my director a few days ago and told her I'd be working today and asking her if she'd be in her office today because I wanted to meet with her for a few minutes. I had meant to see her early on in the shift when I still had my coffee and bagel in me and before the madness hit. Seven hours later, after no lunch, no pee breaks, and turning over four patients total, I finally got a chance to talk to her. I walked into her office, composed and with my resignation letter in hand, sat down, and started blubbering and saying I'm not sure what. I think the fact that I was appreciative for the opportunity to learn from some of the best nurses around came through between the tears and the half-sentences, because she said I always had an open door to come back to. Other than that, I'm not quite sure what I said. Sometimes I can't make my mouth work in speed with my brain, which always moves along quite a bit zippier.

I love people. I will miss all my coworkers, my funny male patients who think they are putting up a tough front that all the little 130lb nurses in their twenties can't see right through, the unflappable CT surgeons who buy us all coffee on Sundays, my clinical leader and coworkers who cried real happy tears when I told them I was pregnant with Amelia, and all the people I've met along the way in other departments who I may never see again except by exceptional luck. I can't help but feel extraordinarily sad to leave. I can see why there are people there who have worked there for 30 years on the same floor, through all the changes it's been through.

Sadly, some things can't be held on to. I can't work there forever. Can't hold on to everything in my life that I want to hold on to through the many phases in life. It's the nature of life. Time to move on.

3 comments

Comment from: Heidi [Visitor]
Heidii hate leaving jobs i love :( i remember one place i worked, that i had to leave because i was starting nursing school, i didnt have the heart to quit completely so i kept reducing my hours on and on until i was barely working just saturday mornings. i ended up writing my manager a letter instead of a face to face - such a chikin! :)
i know you'll miss CT, however I am glad that you wont be driving in all snow and ice hours and hours in the dark!!
02/18/11 @ 15:44
Comment from: phampants [Visitor]
phampantsI know it's time for me to move on from my job. I just need something to go forth. I'm about to complete my 2nd 5 year stint and approaching my 11th year in IT. It's time for change. It's time for a new adventure.
02/18/11 @ 21:10
Comment from: cassie [Member]
cassieIt's hard, isn't it, Pham? I was thankful in that I had another job on the burner in my field and it's challenging and varied enough that I'm not sick of it yet. But even so, making the jump even with that safety net beneath me was tough. New adventures are always worth it. :)
02/23/11 @ 15:23
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